sabrinamarie

 I always knew, but tried to deny it. I definetly eat out of boredom. I stayed busy today, and I havent eaten since the icecream binge! Dinner is almost ready, and I have only eaten twice! Now I know what to fix, I just need to do it! I think the food journal is really helping. And now I have here, and the longest loser competiton to help!

OOOPS!!!! I just had a major icecream binge. A serious one too. The icecream was chocolate, with chocolate chunks, and brownie pieces.

I even lost weight between yesterday morning and this morning, and then I go and do that!! I just have to make sure I stay busy today, so I dont eat and I can burn off some of those calories!! I have to keep up for the longest loser! At least I got to run this morning. And for lunch I had a beef patty with cheeese greenbeens and salad. Im trying to drink plenty of water, its hard to remember to with a baby to take care of!

So, HOUSEWORK!! I hate housework.

 I love a good PBJ after working out. Im not sure how it affects my diet, but since I have no intention of completly giving up carbs or sugar, I think its ok. It helps give me the energy I need to get through the rest of the day.

 I didnt get to jog today. I woke up too late and DH had to go to work early, so I couldnt have the car to go to the park. But, I did get to go for a bike ride. I wanted to go an hour or 5 miles. I was gone for 37:15, and made it 4.80 miles. I had to turn around a bit early. My dog Rose followed me along for the ride, and she was making be a bit nervous. She did very good though, she kept up with me the whole time. Even down hill!! And she really kept me going. When I was cheering her on, I was cheering myself on too. Keeping up the noise so I had something else to concentrate on. She was a really good motivator!!

Hmmm, I really like this font……….

Ta Ta for now!

 Yesterday I didnt get a chance to go jogging. My parents(who DH and I live with for now) had a realtor over to look at the house in the morning, and we had to do some last minute cleaning. By time we were done and the realtor was gone, it was just to hot! We ended up going to Six Flags, and got plenty of exercise there!! And we didnt eat much, becouse, lets face it, food at the theme park just costs too much!!!! We did have icecream, but how often do you get such fantastic icecream??!! Before we left, I was looking for a swimming suit, that was not fun…. I didnt realize till then just how much weight Id put on. Everything is bigger, my arms, my legs, everything!

Today DH went on my jog with me, I didnt think Id like it, I enjoy the alone time, and I thought bringing the baby would be too complicated. It really was pretty great family time for us though. And DH kept me motivated. I didnt want to fall to far behind him, so I had to keep going, even though he has some weight to lose to, he turned out to be in better shape than me! He kept me going, and even though the stroller slowed down the walking laps a bit, my running laps were faster today than usual!

I feel confident in the two lbs Ive lost(my ticker is off Im waiting till Monday to fix it, just in case;) ) which is cool, becouse usually when I lose a few lbs, the usually sneak back. I just hope I dont lose it too fast. I think the healthy amount for a breastfeeding momma is 2lbs in a month, so Im doing ok I think. WhooHooo!!!

 Well, ladies, its that time of the month for me. Im just getting used to them again, as my lil girl is only almost 5 months. Now I have the problem of cravings. The chocolate and fried food cravings. I always used to use this time as an excuse to cheat on diets, but I was never serious before now. I have already had a chocolate shake, and have potatoe wedges on the way…… Ah to be a woman……

On the bright side I got to jog this morning before AF came to bug me. I think missing a day through me off.

This is an excerpt from my food/excercise journal from today:

   “Turns out if I miss even one day, it screws me up. My first lap was great, my first walk I felt on top of the world, I would have kept running if I didnt need a drink! I wish I had kept running. I didnt make it three mins into my 2nd lap [running] before I wanted to stop. But I cant be down on myself. I will do better next time!!”

Well, I will eat the great-tasting-bad-for-my-diet potatoes, then I think I will try to blog next time I get a craving, or maybe clean something. If I cleaned every time I wanted to overeat, my whole road would be clean( and I live on a dirt road!!!)

 Thats about it. I need a job. I dont want to sit around all day anymore. But with my scheadule restrictions its really hard.

 They dont really mean much right now, I mean that weigh in was this morning. But it made me feel good. And then what do I do, I get upset that my DH has to go to work early, and I have that extra scoop of creamy chocolaty icecream after lunch!!(My lunch of the leftover chicken dinner from yesterday, which by the way, I think I cooked to long, and it turned out dry) He works nights and last night worked overtime, and didnt get in until 5 am, and first thing this morning I had to take dd to the dr and by time I got home he was getting ready to go! I didnt even get to jog today!!! I really cant wait untill tomarrow morning. Though the way the weather is going, I will have to start getting up earlier to beat the heat!!!!

 Here is for still weighing 158 tomarrow morning,*no more icecream!!!!*

 Yesterday, I started jogging, and I really like it. I get to spend some time out of the house, I get away from the family for a while and spend some time alone.  When Im done, I feel so good that I did something good for me. It really helps get the stress out. The best Im doing. Im working on the food thing, but I really like to eat, and cook, and eat. Right now im slow cooking a whole chicken. I cut all of the skin off first and as much fat as possible. Im using the neck and most of the fat with some carrots and celery to make a gravy for the less health wise in the house.

My biggest challenge is losing the weight while breastfeeding. I want to cut calories and lose the weight quickly, but I dont want to deprive my baby of the nutrition she needs. Losing the weight isnt really my biggest goal, I want to feel good about myself, have more energy and just be healthy, losing the weight will be a happy side effect.

So you have just read my first blog. I realize my writing is a bit disjointed, and doesnt really flow, but no one said I was a writer!